Tonight, i really feel like talking to someone or anyone. I want to tell them how i feel. How guilty i felt whenever i don't think before i talk. I am the worst person/friend in the whole universe. I think i am a horrible friend/girlfriend/sister/daughter etc. I never changed and I don't know why. I can't let the past haunt me but i can never let go. I forgive but I don't forget. I want to but I find it hard to. Not that I don't want but it is a barrier for me. I can't although I want. Please don't haunt me this way, let me go. I will be a better person. I will learn to be someone better. You grew so attached to something then before you know it, it is gone. Someone leaves you for another. People left you alone and never came back. They left, they came in and out of you life several times. Do you still believe in them? Or do you move on? Do you do this too? Some never came back. Do you miss them? Or do you move on? Have you ever wonder why he/she left? Why did he/she leave? So many answers you want to know. But you never get the answer. You're left alone in the end. Nobody to save you. Some pretend to be happy and tell yourself that it is okay. But the fact is, are you really okay? Sometimes i feel that I don't deserve all these. I don't deserve all these good things that happened to me. What did i really do to deserve all these? I am super horrible.

I really need someone to talk to tonight. Sigh.
Why did you even bother reading it?